Faithfulness

 

I pray that I can be more faithful.  I try the best I can to make wise  decisions in every area of life.  

Examples:

1. My health: Years ago I had cancer.  It was terminal, in my liver, and I was dying.  Jesus then did a miracle in me and healed me in a moment of His divine mercy.  Since then, I've tried to be faithful to take care of my body which was damaged so bad from the chemo.  I have failed many times.  But every single time Jesus has picked me up and healed and strengthened me. Recently I've had an abcessed tooth.  It never hurt but had pressure for over 6 month, or more.  I've prayed consistently that Jesus heal it.  Well, recently I went to the dentist.  He put me on antibiotics which I took, even knowing the problems with antibiotic use.  I'm taking acidophilus and garlic now to try to reestablish the good flora the antibiotics kill.  Then, he did the root canal.  Evidently my tooth was quite infected.  Well, now it hurts.  It never hurt before.  Lots of studies show that root canals are not healthy.  But I felt that I had no other option.  I could not leave that infection in my body that could eventually go to the brain or the heart.  So, I tried to be faithful in this decision with my health.  I pray that Jesus heal me.
2. My family:  I've  always made my children a high priority in life, to raise them in the knowledge and fear of the Lord.  It was very difficult as my husband was an unbeliever.  (We were both unbelievers when we married. Then, Jesus saved me.)  I stayed at home with them and always did the very best I could.  In my marriage it was the same.  I was not perfect, of course, but Jesus once told me that I did the best I could at the time towards my husband always. Jesus forgives me for when I did't treat my husband as well as I should have.  I never divorced him, although he had many problems which most women would have left him for.  So, I was faithful.  Jesus does not allow divorce (except for in cases of serial adultery) so it was never an option.  My husband passed away after 34 years of marriage.
3. My testimony:  After Jesus healed me of terminal cancer I told everyone everywhere about Him.  Because I want everyone to have eternal life and believe in Jesus.  Jesus even gave me a small radio program and a public access tv show to tell of His mercy.  I was faithful to God and continued the ministry until the tv station closed and my husband stopped funding the radio ministry.   After that, for years it was as if I was lost in this world, just trying to survive.  I still told others about Jesus, but not faithfully enough.  A little less than a year ago Jesus came to me in a vision in the Spirit.  (In a picture in my mind.)  He said, "I still have more for you to do, Sidney.  Tell of My mercy, My grace.. and My forgiveness.  As I looked at Him I realized that His mercy, grace, and forgiveness is like a mighty river, an ocean of His power and love constantly flowing to us, immersing us believers in His power forever. (A few months after that the Holy Spirit of Jesus said to me. "I have not found your works complete before My God."  I repented and started being more faithful in telling others about our Lord and Savior.  May Jesus empower me, and keep me more faithful.  Amen